At the beginning of the year, I made a decision to book a Caribbean vacation for myself. It’s been on my heart for a while to do a solo, relaxing trip, since most of my vacations tend to be on the active side. I found a good flight deal for Curacao and decided to jump on it. I also found an all-inclusive resort to stay at – something I’ve never done before.
I left for the trip this morning and the few days leading up to it I started feeling nervous. It feels scary to head out on this adventure alone, but I’m also feeling excitement and courage. I’ve wanted to do a solo trip for a few reasons. First, I’m in a period of life where I CAN do something like this, and I know that won’t always be the case. I like to put other people’s needs ahead of my own, and on this trip, I get to put myself first and do everything I want to do. It’s also nerve wracking, which means it’s an opportunity for growth. Growth in having the confidence and courage in myself that I can do this. Growth by spending 6 days alone and truly connecting with myself. And growth by intentionally remaining present and letting myself relax. I’m the type of person who always like to have a plan and keep busy, but on this trip, I’m giving myself permission to not have an itinerary and not feel the need to be constantly busy.
This year has been a year of growth already and I’m excited for everything new this trip has to offer. Recent events have led me to experience true spiritual moments for the first time in my life, and those moments helped me release old behaviors and habits that have been holding me back. Fear, worry, anxiety, and the need for control have been thought patterns I’ve had most of my life. I’ve only recently started to realize how debilitating that way of living is, and my awakening to that has helped me release these habits. I know it will continue to be a work in progress, but it feels so great to know I’m actively letting these things go. This trip will be another test of keeping these habits released, showing up with faith and courage, and feeling present on this journey.
I can’t wait to share more.
Katie
Katie, this is amazing! I hope this trip was everything you had hoped for. And more! I’m so very proud of you!! Never doubt yourself or your ‘journey!’